Hello blog, I really should make more of an effort.


I currently have 27 posts in “Draft”.

I've got a big one of those on my desk...

And frankly I don’t think any of them should see the light of day.

I’ve found in the few months I’ve been keeping this blog that my writing style, is simply an extension of my personality.

My writing comes in spurts and bursts. I sit down in front of the computer, marshal my thoughts into some semblance of order, and then spew it out onto the screen. I usually try to edit as I go along, but mainly editing is at a minimum. (as those who read this blog can attest! Ha! Take that grammar nazi’s! *grin*)

And this is the problem. If I begin a post, and then for some reason or other, fail to finish it and then stick it into “Draft”, I never get back into that specific frame of mind that I was when I started it. Then when I come back to it, the entire premise of the post is lost on me, and I start second thinking myself.

“What the hell was this post about?”

“Who is my audience?” (Damn you Creative Writing Professor at University! You drilled this so much into my head now, 10+ years after graduating I still find myself asking this stupid question!)

Am I? Am I? Ammmmmm IIIIIII??

“Will people think I’m stupid after they read this post?”

“Is this post stupid?”

“Am I stupid?”

“And is my stupidity so rampant that I have become one of those people who is unaware of their stupidity, and therefore makes these off the wall comments thinking he’s being intelligent and quirky, when he’s just being mundane and boring.

Damn right!

And so on.

And it’s these two modes of thinking that pretty much define how I live my life.

I’m either barrelling ahead, with no thought to consequences, with a devil may care attitude. Oblivious (or totally ignoring) to nay sayers and others who suggest caution. Sure I’ve had my share of disasters living life like this, but I’ve also had my share of impossible against the odds, million to one shot wins (Landing a job that let me live and work on an island resort in Australia’s Great Barrier Reef, whilst still recovering from depression).

Or…

My brain holds my life hostage. My thoughts spiralling into an infinite loop of repeating logic and second questioning. Playing out “what-if” scenarios in my head ad-nauseum, until I am frozen in a near state of panic and self doubt. And sure I’ve missed out on a helluva lot of opportunities, but I’ve also managed to avoid doing a few really, really, really, really, REALLY stupid things (Jumping off that balcony in Madrid).

I would say that growing up I was the latter. I was cautious. I over-thought everything. I was boring.

And the whole daredevil attitude came about as I realised just how much I was missing out by constantly thinking too much about things.

But switching from one extreme to the other, well it’s tiring. So I’m making a conscious decision to try and mend my ways, I’m going to try bully my cautious wimpy side and my completely-off-his-nutter daredevil side into an arranged marriage. Of course, trying to mend a decade’s worth behavioural insanity isn’t going to be easy. So baby steps.

Starting with this blog.

I am going to trawl through my drafts list and finish every single one of those entries.

Every.

Single.

One.

Even if when I read back on thoughts made a few months ago, and they’re just hopelessly banal, and I shudder at the thought of someone reading them, I will still attempt to finish them off. Since at one point in time, I found whatever it was I was writing about important enough to write about.

I am going to give myself the whole month of April to finish these posts. So bear with me.

But I will need some help, just to start off with.

So once again, I’m putting it to a vote. I’ve got some of the entries listed below and an overview of what I’m talking about (since I’ve come to realise the titles of my blog posts tend to veer away from the actual content…) and I’m asking anyone to chip in what they would like to see me finish.

–          Hello my name is Sweatpants, and I’m an FNCthis post is about dating, and my total hopelessness at it.

–          Hello, umm porn seekers, it was inevitable I guessthis post is about the pornification (is that even a word?) of the searches that are being directed to my blog.

–          Hello Bridget, *waves* this was inspired by you!answers Bridgets question as to why my medical expenses in Australia have been astronomical, and provides an explanation of the medicare system of Australia

–         Hello rainy Saturday, time to catch up on my favourite blogsbloglove! Just an updated list of the many people who I stalk, make effigies of and worship as I make my blood sacrifices to their unbelievable blogging abilities.

So your call… oh and if no one votes then meh. I’ll bore you with something about toe nail clippings or something 😛

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16 responses to “Hello blog, I really should make more of an effort.

  1. I do the same thing with the drafts. Sometimes it’s so hard to get back in the same mindset after coming back to a draft. I admire your determination to finish them. Can’t wait to read!

    • It’s not really anything special… its more like I don’t like the thought of them sitting there in the Drafts folder, mocking me with their cold eyes. *looks at drafts folder* STOP IT! STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT!!!! ARRGGGHHHHH!!! *ahem* Well that should have scared you off completely 😉

  2. Every now and then I get a blogging funk as well. I too have a number of drafts, but unlike you, I doubt they will ever see the light of day. A few have slipped through the cracks that I didn’t like after reading them over but overall it hasn’t been a bad ride.

    My vote is for the medicare. I love comparing how anything money related differs throughout the world. I also like seeing how my own system in Barbados stacks up to the big guns in the world.

    • Medicare it is… damn it I have to do research now…

      Aaahhh yes the good ol’blogging funk. God how I despise that. Like when you’re sitting in front of the computer… you’re staring at a blank screen… the cursor winking at you mockingly… ARGRGGGGGHHHH!! Wow… I’m channeling some rage today…

  3. Don’t make this “work”. You might be best off to just delete those drafts. They just remind you of something you haven’t finished, and that can be a bit of an energy drain. I really enjoy your writing style and humour, and the posts that were easy to write are when you had something to say (I’m assuming they were easy to write. Maybe not). I’d hate to see you get so frustrated with trying to hit a home run everytime you sit down at the keyboard that you give this up. Your writing is really fun to read, and I hope to be reading your take on life for quite a while.

    • Nah they were pretty easy, they just tend to flow like I’m telling you people a story over a pint. The others are mostly like those, except I’ve just been distracted by something to finish them and then when I get back I go “why in the hell was I on about giraffe sex???” or something along those lines… My Brain… sometimes it does things without me knowing…

  4. ahahaha thanks for the shout out!

    • Bike… (I really should stop calling you that…) you have one of the most interesting and informative PF blogs I have ever read. Actually you have one of the most interesting blogs (not limiting to PF blogs now) everrrrrr. So thank YOU for writing that.

  5. oh and obviously I want the explanation of why your medical costs are astronomical.

  6. I vote for the first one.

    • LOL, more dating mishap adventures aye? Alrighty thats 2 for medicare, one for my idiocy with women.

      • Your last dating adventure was awesome! I mean, it stunk that your date was awful, but I loved your reaction and that you cut the date short.

      • Hahahahahaha… I have much much much more dating (mis)adventures to share. I mean that was the worst date I have ever been on, but in saying that, the second worst date I’ve ever been on involved the killing of a much beloved farmyard animal (no it was not my idea, nor did I commit the murder).

  7. I vote for the medical cost one too.

    And great post – I feel I have the same pendulum sweep of boring/compulsive. They’re probably working on a pill for that.

  8. writeing is great stuff.people love to read i all so have a real life story i can write about.great job.

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